Author Archive for Star Eagle Tzoltec

Old Story

BondsBe not the slave of your own past

plunge into sublime seas, drive deep,

and swim far

So you shall come back with self respect,

with new power, with an advanced experience,

that shall explain and overlook the old.

—Ralph Waldo Emerson

Dear Human

Dear Human:

You’ve got it all wrong .
image006You didn’t come here to master unconditional love.
That is where you came from and where you’ll return.
You came here to learn personal love.
Universal love. Messy love . Sweaty love.
Crazy love . Broken love. Whole love .
Infused with divinity.
Lived through the grace of stumbling.
Demonstrated through the beauty of…messing up.
You didn’t come here to be perfect.
You already are.
You came here to be gorgeously human.
Flawed and fabulous .

And then to rise again into remembering .

But unconditional love? Stop telling that story.
Love, in truth, doesn’t need ANY other adjectives.
It doesn’t require modifiers.
It doesn’t require the condition of perfection.
It only asks that you show up. And do your best.
That you stay present and feel fully.
That you shine and fly and laugh and cry and hurt and heal and fall
and get back up and play and work and live and die as YOU.

It’s enough.

It’s Plenty.

—Courtney Walsh

Wild Man Weekend

We enter through a hole in the earth,
In silence we scream,shedding our skin.

Some easily become invisible among the trees.

wildman_2For others the first wind hitting is a shocking slap,a first breath,
No time to be taken gently
By fathers’ hands firmly supporting to mama’s soft belly.

Oh! how I love to lay in upon the earth
But instead,lined up and tossed
Into the rushing river, scratched by reeds.

We wake to meet the medicine man,
Reflexive battle twitches,
Limbs learn strength in wrestling,

Digging in each foot and climbing the hill to join the tribe.

Drummers drive the male rain hard into the earth

As masks crack.
Pain packed dormant like a rotting root of a tooth
Rises tension, to grinding,

To deep growling wolf
Howl into the face of the storm.

Winds whip the frenzy
Leaving the illusion of the electric world behind,

As the shadow leaps over the fire
And the grim grip of the intellect loses control.

We dance , we play, we warm ourselves by the fire.
We watch our fears take form and float across the sky
Clouds changing shape

From ships of Viking berserkers to swash buckling heroes and fools,
Flashes of sword and lightning,

The smell of our ancestors
Swirl in our nostrils and then ride away again,
Leaving us beaten and worn
From inner battles.

Still standing in the silence of oak, manzanita, redwood,and madrone,

Knowing more about where we came from,
We stare into the fire and the shadows on each other’s faces
Feeling wounds opened and closed.

Wounds of fathers and lovers
washed by the rain

We listen to stories from the heart
And in this circle move toward wholeness ready to walk
Back on the path toward our dreams

Lit by the healing torch of our sameness
Chanted in the deep voices of men.
And the full moon rising over the green wisdom of the valley.

The owl says goodnight.

Steve Backinhoff
Dancing Gorilla


It Takes a Village…

Thursday  at our dome I-group we had the honor of having Mike Biskup  Mike is actively pursuing his vision by using his talent in translating his experience within the Mankind Project.

The following is his album that is available for a mere $7.

Takes a Village to Raise a Man

100 percent of the profits will be to fund weekend scholarships in the NW area.

Check it out!!

Women Within

Aloha Hawaii MKP Men,

My name is Amber Bonnici. My husband Tony has been a part of MKP since it first came to the islands. I have watched him grow and change and over the years have often looked for a similar experience as a woman. This last September I took a training with the sister organization of MKP called Women Within. That power of that weekend shifted my life. I want to bring that weekend and e-circles (similar to i-groups) to the Hawaiian islands.

I want to get an idea of how many prospective women would be interested in doing the training on the Big Island. I have included some information on the organization and weekend below. Could you please have any interested women, please contact me at or (808) 936-3332.

As you need a community of men to support your mission, we women do too. I look forward to the unfolding of women’s work here in Hawai’i.

Mahalo for your assistance,

Amber Bonnici




The Women Within Training provides a safe and nurturing environment for you to explore how your life could be different and to reaffirm your wholeness as a woman. Since 1988 thousands of women from more than 20 countries have chosen to experience this powerful transformation weekend.


Our mission is “To create educational opportunities for women to discover the power of who they are and encourage women to communicate this truth in their relationships, families, workplaces and communities.”


The Women Within Training was created by women, for women. It is a unique opportunity to explore your essence as a woman and your life choices. The training is not therapy. It offers a series of exercises, guided imagery and intense individual and group work so that you can see and transform what holds you back. The one-to-one staff ratio allows for personal attention and ensures that you are witnessed and supported as you reclaim you passion for lie and belief in yourself.


Each member of the staff has walked the same Women Within path by experiencing the training herself. We are women of all ages and cultural backgrounds. From age 18 to 80 and beyond. We are grandmothers, mothers, sisters, daughters, partners and friends. We come from many different professions and walks of life. Many women choose to support Women Within by volunteering their time and resources. As small number of senior staff are paid to facilitate the weekend.


How will you know if this is the right time in your life to do the Women Within training?

At Women Within, we trust that each woman intuitively knows what is right for her. The training provides the tools to delve deeper into your own inner wisdom and see which parts of yourself need further acknowledgment and integration, so that you can live your life to the fullest. We are there to support you- in all your potential and power, with all your shadows and challenges- to be who you want to be. The only requirement for attendance is an openness to experiencing yourself.


How can one weekend possibly change your life?

For some, it is the opportunity to be heard as they discover their voice and speak their truth. For others, it is having the space and time to experience intense emotions without judgment . Still for others, it is the rare experience of compassion and strength created by women coming together to witness, accept, empower and honor themselves. You decide what you will take away from this creatively choreographed weekend. You decide where you are ready to go.


“During the weekend, I spent time with myself, my real self. After years of not wanting to look . I discovered I’m not so bad after all. Just a little sad and a little angry. Nothing a little compassion can’t sort out.” ~Louise Le Gat, London, UK


“I know myself better now. I am able to feel my feelings instead of denying them. I understand the difference between my thoughts and feelings. I stand my ground instead of blowing in the breeze to everyone else’s desires. I can say no!” ~Ann Beck, Grand Ledge, MI


“When I went to the weekend I had a hole in my heart, a missing piece that kept me from being whole. At the weekend I found that piece and it has remained with me ever since.” ~Barbara Vittetoe, Puyallup, WA


“At the training I learned how to speak from my heart. My relationships with both men an women have improved because I can communicate more clearly when I need, what I want and who I am. It’s a lot of work but worth the effort.” ~Anne Recchia, Rochester, NY


“The Woman Within Training moved me forward and more deeply into my own life, through issues that used to block me, toward a perspective of valuing all parts of my past and all parts of myself. Being part of the Women Within Community has opened new paradigms for me about community, collaboration and culture. I feel more connected not only to my own life but also to history and my vision for the future.” ~Bonnie Reagan, Chicago, IL


On Warriors and Greed

Warriors don’t venture into the unknown out of greed.

Greed works only in the world of ordinary affairs.

To venture into that terrifying loneliness of the
unknown, one must have something greater than greed: love.

One needs love for life, for intrigue, for mystery.
One needs unquenchable curiosity and

guts galore.

-Carlos Casteneda from

The Fire From Within


Some words on Shadow

As I descend into basement shadows, I am washed in red.

Smoothness is not a choice on the earthly plane.

As light reveals, so also shadows are spawned.

With this I must learn to rock my ignorance to sleep to await its hungry cry.

I must feed my insincerity its milky gruel.

I must give my meanness rapt attention.

I must dine with my shallowness and play chess with my incompetence.

I must massage my cruelty’s neck and let my coldness share my bed.

I must serve tea to my gloom and warm my fear’s cold feet, while tucking in my weakness for the night.

I must play cards with my animal passions and wrap my ugliness in my favorite silken robe.

I must sing to my conceit and pick up my naivete and hold it close in my arms.

All these folk live in my house, as they must.

I must honor their darkness for in it they help make the light shine.

With this, all at once and in balance, the wholeness of soul can be truly found.

Happy is the house where all sleep warm.

Where no one must lie in the basement, damp alone and afraid-

and enraged at the one who locked the cellar door

All those many years before.

— Unknown

A Warrior….

Listen to me carefully and remember every word.

A warrior is not a soldier.
A soldier is trained to fight and follow orders.
A warrior is trained to think for himself and fight only as a last resort.
A warrior is the first to begin and the last to quit .
He laughs the hardest and loves the best.
Stand your ground in all things and only give ground out of kindness.

A warrior is not a follower, nor is he a leader except at great need.

A warrior learns from the animals, the hills, and the rivers.
He respects all things of the earth as if they were his own heart.
All men and all spirits are equals.

A warrior never begs or pleads, nor does he give in to hopelessness and despair.

Whether the warrior is successful or tries valiantly only to have failed, he thanks the Great Spirit for the opportunity and the lessons.

A warrior cares for the weakest and least of his brothers, humbling himself in their service.

He seeks wisdom in all things and learns from even the dullest, for all are his teachers.

A warrior leaves judgment of his brothers and sisters to the Great Spirit, but does not tolerate disrespectful behavior in his presence.

Love and Peace,
Barefoot Windwalker

Some more words on warriorship from Robert Breszny’s book
PROnoia is the Antidote for Paranoia”


Four Dignities of the Warrior’s Path

 In Tibetan Buddhism’s “Four Dignities of the Warrior’s Path,” courage and ferocity are absent. In fact, the qualities regarded as essential for being a warrior have nothing in common with the training regimens of Marines or football players or lobbyists.

The first dignity is often translated in English as meekness, but that word doesn’t convey its full meaning. “Relaxed confidence” is a more precise formulation — a humble feeling of being at home in one’s body.

Perkiness, or irrepressible joy, is the second dignity. To develop it, a warrior cultivates the habit of seeing the best in everything and works  diligently to avoid the self-indulgence of cynicism.

 The third is outrageous-ness. The warrior who embodies this dignity loves to experiment, is not addicted to strategies that have been successful in the past, and has a passionate objectivity that’s free of the irrelevant emotions of hope and fear.

 The fourth dignity is inscrutability, or a skill at evading the pigeonholes and simplistic definitions that might limit the warrior’s inventiveness while fighting for his or her moral vision.

Great Men

The real great man is the man who makes every man feel great.

~ G. K. Chesterton

Declare amnesty for the fool in you…..

Declare amnesty for the part of you that you don’t love very well.
Forgive that poor sucker. Hold its hand and take it out to dinner and a movie. Tactfully offer it a chance to make amends for the dumb things it has done.
And then do a dramatic reading of this proclamation by the playwright Theodore Rubin:

“I must learn to love the fool in me — the one who feels too much, talks too much, takes too many chances, wins sometimes and loses often, lacks self-control, loves and hates, hurts and gets hurt,promises and breaks promises, laughs and cries. It alone protects me against that utterly self-controlled, masterful tyrant whom I also harbor and who would rob me of human aliveness, humility, and dignity but for my fool.”

The greatest gift you can give might be the gift that you yourself were never given.

Give that gift.

The most valuable service you have to offer your fellow humans may be the service you have always wished were performed for you.

Offer that service.

An experience that wounded you could move you to help people who’ve been similarly wounded.

Heal yourself by healing others.

“The problem, if you love it, is as beautiful as the sunset,” wrote J. Krishnamurti. “The obstacle is the path,” says the Zen proverb.

What frustrating puzzle do you love the best?

—Robert Breszny
Excerpt from  “Subterranean Pronoia Therapy.”

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